Wednesday, September 23, 2009
I've decided to let go.
It's not the first time I made this decision,
but I think this time I'm really quite determined.
Whatever happens to them (or even us), shall not be of my concern.
Letting go, is for the sake of my happiness.
Or maybe all of us would be happier.
Sounds like such a good thing huh.
But this decision is tearing my heart apart right now.
用一段感情换一个朋友，每一句再见割一道伤口Labels: 我又何苦在乎得不到的温柔？
12:07 AM
Sunday, August 2, 2009
mum: "what is your sister playing?"
me: "hmm. online rpg. noob de. i also play before."
mum: "oh... so that's an online rpg too..."
me: "i started playing online rpgs in sec 1 (those before were pc games), and now she p2 know how to play alr. =.="
mum: "T^T i now still dont know how to play!"
me: "... you're totally missing the point. =.="
Lol my mum isnt worried about my sister getting addicted at such a young age at all.
=.=
i need a cca.
:(
4:17 PM
Sunday, July 26, 2009
明明爱恨清晰 却又接受分离，我只剩失恋的权利。
难过还来不及， 爱早已融入呼吸，
不存在的存在心底。
虽然很努力 练习着忘记，
我的心却还没答应可以放弃了你。
真的对不起，答应了你不再爱你，
我却还没答应我自己。
说好要忘记，偏偏又想起，
原来我的心还没有答应放弃了你。
真的对不起，虽然曾经答应了你，
我却还没答应我自己。
... 却又如何真的不爱你
2:51 PM
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
It's my birthday! again.. zzz
I must say I'm quite disappointed today cos many ppl forgot about my birthday.
The messages and gifts I got from those who remembered still made my day though! :D
So, here's a big THANK YOU for those who remembered!
(and boo to the rest) lol no la jk
:D
7:35 PM
Monday, July 20, 2009
孤单心事 is really a very nice song. (yes i know sm is gonna agree)
But i like it more because it totally describes my feelings now.
Not just now, been feeling this way for a very long time alr.
雨下在我窗前，玻璃也在流眼泪
街上的人都看起来 比我幸福一点
用寂寞来测验，还是最想要你陪
曾一起走过的夏天，我常常会梦见
我猜不到你真正的感觉，思念写成脸上的黑眼圈
有的时候我宁愿，你对我坏一点，
无法停止幻想我们的永远
爱你是孤单的心事，不懂你微笑的意思
只能像一朵向日葵，在夜里默默地坚持
爱你是孤单的心事，多希望你对我诚实
一直爱着你，用我自己的 方式
我在你的心里，有没有一点特别？
就怕你终究没发现，我还在你身边
i just typed the lyrics out myself.
i think i'm really damn stupid.
stop thinking about it you stupid girl.
rahhhhhh
Labels: someone wake me up
6:54 PM
Thursday, July 16, 2009
能伤害我的，都是我爱的
还保护什么？
6:27 PM
Sunday, July 5, 2009
i.am.very.pissed. OKAY.
for those of you who dint know,
I am a big fan of the game 仙剑奇侠传.
To the extent that i own the whole series of the game.
All 5. and i've been playing since p4.
okay that's not the main point.
The main point is I'm really pissed off with the production group that made the game into a drama series!
When the first one came out I was really excited,
since you know, i love it so much, plus the male lead is my dearest hu ge!
the show was nice but a bit disappointing cos they changed the storyline a bit.
Now they made another one.
仙剑奇侠传三... THEY TOTALLY SCREWED IT UP OKAY????
I can't believe there are ppl going crazy over the show!
Okay if u havent played the game before u might think it's okay.
But it actually sucks okay!
So far I've watched the first 2 episodes,
and 5 mins into the first one already made me swear continuously.
T^T screw tang ren production group man.
I HATE YOU FOREVER!
T^T
6:01 PM
Friday, July 3, 2009
lol don't ask me why i suddenly add blogsongs.
just felt like doing it.
only 5 songs now.
gonna add more when i have the time :D
7:41 PM
lalala exams are over!
totally over man. gg la all the papers damn difficult.
screwed up every single one of them.
i think chem and maths are the worst.
haish i think when i get back the results im gonna be damn sad.
maths is supposed to be my FORTE! =.=
And you know, when the teacher said last 15 mins i seriously had half the paper undone.
I'm so dead.
T^T
Let's forget about exams for now.
Recently I've been wanting to draw a lot.
So last night after the last paper i drew!
shall post one or two of them here.
Haha for those that dunno who she is,
here's a pic of her
:D she's damn cool and damn cute! :D
haha here's another one.
just a random one of dadong. personally i think this one sucks.
k the files a bit big so they're not clear here.
next time i shall just use my phone to take photo. haha
:D
Now that i have more time i should practise more man
standard dropping sia.
2:54 PM
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
I think my drawings are getting uglier.
Well, I'm getting lazier too.
Normally I will draw big and proper eyes for my chibi characters too.
But now they're like... big black dots.
Lol. Last night I was bored and started drawing chibi verson of 5I.
But only drew 11 though. The rest I a bit lazy la.
Will draw another day.
Haha people dont get angry if u think they're ugly k.
I dint mean to make u guys ugly.
oops i was supposed to post this on the class blog.
lol
nvm post 1 can le. u get it? it looks so simple. im really lazier sia.
8:52 AM
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
HELLO
Why am I here again?
I'm supposed to be eating my notes!
hahaha
Yepps i wasted my time again.
Today also dint study.
Nvm I know it's not surprising.
Tomorrow I'm going out to study with vicky!
Haha I hope I can finally do something man.
If not I'll be so screwed.
Okay haha I'm actually really looking forward to school reopening.
I can't believe it man!
But staying at home is really such a waste of time.
I'm just slacking my ass out.
Go school still can get pressurized by my classmates.
LOL what kind of logic is that.
Anyways I think my blog is really boring.
Should be closing it down soon.
:/
Poor thing. Sorry ar, qinyu is a very lazy person.
Blogging aint for lazy peeps man.
Haha. I shall go back and try to eat a few more pages of my econs notes.
T^T
3:58 PM
Monday, June 22, 2009
No progress with my studying at all.
Or rather, did I even study?
I think I totally wasted my time stoning, thinking of unnecessary stuff.
This is the end man.
I'm a total loser.
Animes always teach us to believe in ourselves, and once you do, you can do anything.
If you don't, you can't do anything.
I wonder if it's true.
If it is, I want to try believing in myself for once.
It's not just about results anymore man.
I need to be more confident of myself,
of how others think of me, and how I think about myself.
I need to stop believing that I'm a fat, ugly, stupid, lazy and useless person. (although it's quite true)
Haha, I should lie to myself a little.
Maybe if I start believing that I'm smart and pretty, I will really become someone like that.
For now... I really need to start revising for my tests.
Especially when I did no tutorials and did not pay attention in class.
I think I need to learn everything myself since I dint learn anything in school.
Lol, I so regret it now.
And I think extending holidays won't help me much.
Since I'm just gonna waste my time at home.
Just let me hurry up flunk this exam and learn my lesson.
:(Labels: 看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着
11:47 AM
Monday, June 1, 2009
YOZ PEOPLE
June break is finally here! woots.
lol actually i wasnt looking forward to it.
For the past 8 years, my holidays are always spent in front of the comp.
8.00am switch on comp, 11.00pm switch off.
Sometimes it's even longer.
haish. this time i shall try to change this practice.
I WILL MUG FOR MYE!!!
haha. believe it or not.
this time results still damn lousy but at least i wasnt last in class for any subject.
(though overall results still last)
msg improved by 2.0
seems like a lot but actually it isnt.
MSG 4.0 LEH! DAMN LOUSY CAN!
wah can't stand it.
I'm really gonna mug leh.
I shall frame my term 1 term 2 result slip and hang it somewhere visible
to spite myself. >.<
I plan to do all my tutorials during this june break.
Meaning that i have to complete all the tutorials that have been snowballing since JANUARY.
Isn't that great? (:
I did some filing yesterday and I realise I don't have a single completed tutorial.
so.. haha loads of work to do for me! :D
WISH ME GOOD LUCK! BYES!
3:13 PM
Monday, May 25, 2009
Hi people.
I am in a weird mood.
I was emoing a minute ago.
Now I feel damn high. :D
I have a GP test tmr.
I know I'm gonna fail it.
And I'm not planning to do anything about it.
:D
i think im starting to REALLY hate pw now.
11:00 PM
Sunday, May 24, 2009
我好烦。
2:14 PM
Sunday, May 10, 2009
okay i feel so sorry for myself.
I really really really really really cannot study sia!
Argh another unproductive day. What to do with myself man.
I know I'm not stupid la. Just that, even smart ppl needs to work hard to get good results right!
Furthermore I'm not smart. =.=
great i just wasted a few weeks. PHY AND CHEM TEST ARE COMING!
And i can do is to scream in panic.
Panic? That doesn't sound like QinYu.
BUT IM REALLY PANICKING!
I REALLY did not do any phy tutorials and did not listen to a single word wong jee pheng said! (sorry pheng pheng >.<)
Okay I should stop blogging about tests and results and how i've been slacking.
Lol I bet it's boring to read.
....
But there's nothing much to blog about alr :/
Haish I'm kinda worried for my parents.
I got a really bad feeling these days.
Like 暴风雨之前的平静 :/
I know the problem between them havent been solved,
they just agreed to stop arguing about it.
I really hope I'm just being over sensitive >.<
Haish. one more thing before i click on the orange button,
I WANT FENCING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHH FCK THE SCHOOL!!!!
6:26 PM
Friday, April 24, 2009
Screwed up econs essay big time. Never ATQ + never write on PES at all.
I'm gonna be last in class for econs, again.
Maths lecture test is coming too. I got a really bad feeling about it.
Haven't really start revising yet, and have been stoning in class.
Guess I really deserve it.
I feel like crying for myself.
It's not like I don't want to work hard, is I cannot work hard.
I don't know how to work hard.
I've been living in the slacking environment all my life,
and I can't just transform into a mugger.
Oh man. My life is screwed.
If God planned to make me such a slacker He could have at least given me better brains!
Screw my life. Oh man. I want to quit school.
):):):):):):
anyways, happy birthday winnie!
8:04 PM
Thursday, April 16, 2009
Oh my, havent blogged in ages.
Nothing much to blog about anyway, I think everytime I blog I will get emo :(
Term 2 lecture tests are coming, I may not look like it but I'm getting really nervous.
I feel like slapping myself. My term 1 results sucked to the core, yet I dint start to work hard.
I really deserve to fail.
I got loads of things to do now, but yet I'm like addicted to monopoly :/
Kay I know it sounds stupid, but MONOPOLY IS FUN!
It started last year, after I downloaded the free trial of monopoly (here and now edition) I totally got addicted la. But must pay to get the full one and the free trial only last for 1 hour ):
So I just keep downloading from different websites. LOL
Okay obviously it's not gonna last long right! haha I feel so lame.
Anyways I cracked the game recently. So I got the full game for free! :D (shhhhhhh keep quiet)
Now I kinda regret being so pro :/ LOL
It's distracting me a lot la. haish. What to do.
Now, I need to revise econs, do maths revision worksheet, AND DO THE BLARDY AQ!!
Oh man AQ sucks. AHHHHHHH I HATE GP!!!
I think I shall leave the econs revision for the weekends. :/
Can't help it, once a procrastinator always a procrastinator.
haha. k la I go do my AQ alr, somebody is nagging at me :/ oh man i feel like i got quite a few nannies.
7:41 PM
Friday, March 6, 2009
UUSDE.
U for maths (fking hell i failed my best subject. miserably somemore!)
grrr maths rep last in class for maths.
U for econs (last in class)
S for physics. (last in class)
D for chemistry (last in class)
E for GP (the only one that i dint get last in class for.)
so nice right. i was trying to form a word with my grades but couldnt,
but then vicky made two words for me : USED U.
LOL
not bad not bad. :D
lol dont say im shameless to post my imba results here.
yes i know they suck.
i did this to spite myself.
next term, im gonna get full marks for maths!
wahahahahahah
i can already start dreaming about it la hahaha
okay im currently in a surprisingly good mood now.
just had a "family talk" aka a war,
it was erm. like a war.
i was trying to hold back my tears throughout the whole talk,
or rather, the whole battle.
after it's finally over i went back into my room to cry la (whatever. im not afraid of letting u guys know now)
then after i bathe, some miracle happened.
my parents were like talking to each other nicely,
as if none of those shit happened.
i erm. dunno what to say.
it's like a world war III that ended too soon?
ehhh no. actually the cold war lasted for almost 4 months. D:
Although i still have a bad feeling about them but...
I'm happy for now! :D
maybe someday the dark ages will end.
seriously, i'm really damn puzzled now.
is it like a truce?
did they sign treaty of appeasement while i was away?
omg things happen so quickly.
gahhh i just wish my suffering will end completely.
D:Labels: turning point?
11:16 PM
Friday, February 27, 2009
心在狂叫，一点讯号 都没有说出，让你知道。
6:57 PM
Haha for those that dunno who she is,
k the files a bit big so they're not clear here.
